Why do i feel such pride and strength?

For some reason or another. I am very very interested in Leadership. Leadership such ran like in the USSR, North Korea and so on. Communism, Totalitarian, Dictatorships. When I see militant nations like North Korea, even though its a horrible life to live, but to see the mive military figure structures like in Pyongyang such as the mive Juche Ideas Monument and the Liberation Monument. I feel power, i feel that this touches me powerfully somewhere inside. I like uniform symmetrical art that is used with the ociation of Communism and power. Why do i feel this way?